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Dec. 9th, 2005 07:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ladydoujiWell I called my mother, to maybe try and patch things up.
It did not go well.
Instead of listening and caring about when and how she had hurt me, my mother decided to instead try to guilttrip me. Asking me about times I refused plans to hangout(uhm that would be because I already had plans) and times I didn't go hang out at the house(hmm sitting around watching whatever game is on with the rest of the clan, yeah that sounds like great quality mother/daughter bonding time) I'm sorry but declining plans or vague non-events is not the same as changing or canceling confirmed plans at the last moment. She basically tried to do everything she could to make feel that I'm a horrible, selfish, ungrateful brat for feeling the way that I do, and putting words into my mouth that I never said. Frankly it didn't work.
At least it can't be said that I didn't try to reconcile.
There is a lot more I could say here about my mother's faults and my own weakness in dealing with her, but for now I think I'm going to do what I always do in times of emotional distress. Find any distraction I can and run with it, at least for a little.
*sigh* I do love my mom and I know that she loves me, I'm not sure if that makes this mess better or worse.
It did not go well.
Instead of listening and caring about when and how she had hurt me, my mother decided to instead try to guilttrip me. Asking me about times I refused plans to hangout(uhm that would be because I already had plans) and times I didn't go hang out at the house(hmm sitting around watching whatever game is on with the rest of the clan, yeah that sounds like great quality mother/daughter bonding time) I'm sorry but declining plans or vague non-events is not the same as changing or canceling confirmed plans at the last moment. She basically tried to do everything she could to make feel that I'm a horrible, selfish, ungrateful brat for feeling the way that I do, and putting words into my mouth that I never said. Frankly it didn't work.
At least it can't be said that I didn't try to reconcile.
There is a lot more I could say here about my mother's faults and my own weakness in dealing with her, but for now I think I'm going to do what I always do in times of emotional distress. Find any distraction I can and run with it, at least for a little.
*sigh* I do love my mom and I know that she loves me, I'm not sure if that makes this mess better or worse.
