Today is not my day

[ladydouji]

Me and my mom went car shopping today. Went to like the only place open on sunday, even found found a car liked and was willing to buy. Until we started waiting for them to run my credit and work out the payment plans. and waited and waited and waited. During which time I started getting nervous and scared about the payments. The finally pulled us to the back room to finalize it, and started throwing options that of course increase the payments. And I had a panic attack. Heart racing, hands shaking and fighting back tears. It's been so long since I had one I forgot how much they suck, and made me think how much I must avoid the situations that cause them without even thinking it. Going to academic counselers, doctors and dating, simply by waiting and procrastinating. Even now I just want to concoon myself in my apartment and for all about buying a new car, even though I really need one.

And that's enough of my whining right now.